And now this?

What a wet and dreary Monday in Muskoka!  The forecast is calling for 30cm of snow over the next couple of days though so I should enjoy it while I can.  This has been one hell of a week for me.  You know the kind that just never seems to end and nothing really goes quite as planned?  Not only has this been a really heavy week for the herd and I helping our visitors to process the stress of the past several months.  The emotional energy seems to be lingering in my barn these days with an echo of sadness, that no amount of smudging seems to able to fully clear.  There has been some powerful healing shared though and for that I am always grateful.  I am living the best life for myself where my daily routine requires me to be grounded and focused.  Last Monday started with me putting myself in the ditch.  My week ended with an amazing a beautiful gift of community, and a fierce reminder that there are people in the world who intend harm without provocation.  I will write about both of them in this weeks post.  Normally I would share photos pf the previous week in my blog, however this week I am posting photos for myself.  Self loves seems to be hard for me today, so I want to remind myself that I am never allowed to quit, but have to continue to find a way.  These photos are to remind me of the loving magic that exists and is shared here.

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Before I get into the darker side of this week's post, I want to take a few moments to thoroughly express my undying love and gratitude for all of my volunteers.  Not only does this amazing group of ladies love all of my animals, they also care about me and want to help me as much as they are able.  This past weekend I had scheduled a big job that requires many hands - mucking out the main goat pen.  This is no small task, and it is horribly dusty and dirty.  As a team we all got started first thing after morning chores, and I honestly thought it would take us until dark to get it all done.  Oddly there was no place for me in the barn so I busied myself for a bit with doing pre-breeding shots on my bucks.  I had some errands to run and promised to return with pizza for everyone in the afternoon.  I was home by 2 and went to the barn to call everyone in to eat and stopped DEAD in my tracks.  The barn was DONE!  I was completely speechless!  These amazing 5 ladies knocked it out of the park!  I felt guilty for not being able to pitch in and pizza felt so inadequate for the amazing work they did.  I can't thank these ladies enough or express how deeply it touched my heart.  You truly all must love these crazy goats as much as I do!  Thank you to all of my amazing volunteers for always being here when I need a hand!   You all fill me with the love you so freely give to everything we do here.  You are all amazing, bright lights in my life, and I know the herd loves you all deeply as well ❤🐐

So, now I need to get something off my chest.  Someone over this past weekend committed a criminal offense against me, in a malicious attempt to cause my family and I harm.  I won't share the details of what happened as it would only give this person exactly what they want - an audience and attention.  The police are involved, so that should tell you that it is serious.  Fortunately there was plenty of evidence collected and I pray that justice finds this person.  I will not give it thought, or allow it to bring me down in any way, but willingly leave it in the hands of the OPP.  You didn't hurt me, but you sure have made things harder and darker for yourself.  Karma really is a mean, cold bitch sweetheart.  We all face our pasts eventually.  I wish you luck with that...
Here is the greatest lesson life has ever taught me.  You can't control what other people choose to do - period.  Bad stuff happens to good people.  You can't choose what happens to you in life BUT you CAN choose how you REACT to it.  I refuse to lower my own vibration by giving this attack my energy and will instead choose to send love to this person.  They clearly need all the love they can get, and I have it in spades to share 💕  For those of you who read this and are now concerned, please don't be .  All is well here and I will continue to forge ahead, as I always do.  With love in my big, open heart and with a smile on my face. 
​Be well my friends ~ Angee ❤